I added the addendum in case anyone else here has expereienced this

I am terribly sorry I introduced this to what should have been a DW forum

Why did I do it? Well.... It's been a difficult road and one for which you
are supposed to be ashamed...and it was something I was supposed to
do.......according to a therapist. It's a bit difficult but I won't do that.
I won't be ashamed.

Now that I've done this much I think it's best to explain

My mother committed suicide a couple years ago close to this date.

She was 60. And still very beautiful....

You cannot imagine the horror.

But it's my tragedy, not yours. Or is it? never thought it would strike in
my family. No one does. And I never thought to be a crusader. It only came
up because I miss her so terribly much at this time of year. And I have
never, despite the fact I've counselled god knows how many suicidal
individuals, never brought it up in a public forum. And I have a HUGE
reluctance to do so.

But I've decided for this one year, because of a number of other suicides,
that I'll open up a bit.

I don't want to lecture anyone.

I do want to tell you to watch your loved ones. I never thought it would
happen to me. I wouldn't do this but I've seen so many parents lose their
kids. I wouldn't do this if I thought it was unimportant.

God help me, I'm sorry if I've worried anyone unnecessarily. But watch. I've
watched two classmates and my mother commit suicide.

It causes more deaths than heart disease or cancer. If you want more
information contact me and I'll do my utmost to help.

But don't... .don't...dismiss it. Don't think because a person suggests it
they won't do it. That's a fallacy.Don't be paraonoid. Just listen. If a
person says they have no hope, WORRY.......

I'm very sorry.... I truly am....

but on the other hand, I want you all to know... not because I think it will
happen in your family, but because you need to know...

why... because.... I know you know someone who has chosen this because they
are so hurt or so lacking hope, and we all need to know it .

love to you all, please forgive me for this, but I had to do it

Dawn






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Sent: Thursday, January 01, 2004 4:01 AM
Subject: Re: [OT} Re: May the road rise to meet you


> Hey Dawn
> We sit here listening and we do care :-)
> Wishing you the strength to rebuild your life.
> john
>
> On Thursday, January 1, 2004, at 10:56 am, Dawn Campbell wrote:
>
> > This is totally inappropriate but it might explain a few things, and I
> > was
> > challenged todo this by a grief counsellor:I'm not very good at sharing
> > things, and there's a GREAT chance I'll never post here again after
> > this
> > but I just had to do the deed ( you can't imagine how hard it is and
> > how
> > many tears are running down my face and I'm so sorry for doing this
> > here,
> > but it was the kindest group of people I've come across, so please
> > forgive
> > me)......
> >
> > my mother committed suicide
> >
> > and I've been a total wreck since....please understand.
> >
> > Dawn
>
>
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